#can you tell im manic
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tai-janai · 9 months ago
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cold: whatever makes you... happy.
me: WHY CANT YOU EBE BFFBJENF NENDJJFJDJD BE HONEST WITH YOUR FEELINGS WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS. WHAT DID YOH MEAN BY THIS . YOU DIDNT WANT THE COMFORT BECAUSE YOU KNOW IT WOULD BE THE CARE YOU NEEDED. YOU KEEP YOURSELF FROM FEELING PAIN AND JOY BECAUSE YOU ARE SCARED OF MORE PAIN AND JOY LEAVING. YOU ARE SO FUCKING TRAUMATIZED AND YOU DONT WANT OTHERS TO BE HURT TOO. PHYSICAL PAIN IS NOTHING BECAUSE YOUR EMO ASS IS IN MENTAL PAIN ETERNALLY AND YOURE SO FUCKED UP YOU CANT TELL THE DIFFERENCE
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raineedayss · 6 months ago
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when the new upload has the streamer acting terrified for his life and speaking in a hushed whisper only to immediately manically scream insults at the Thing that was chasing them once they realize that, for now, they’re safe and also has them slowly getting more and more irritated and fearful and very clearly insane from getting torn apart again and again but yet not being allowed to die only escaping with his body not his soul>>
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numberonepartyboy · 7 months ago
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congrats to toshiro for being the first male victim of fandom misogyny
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whatever you do, don't think about how lana saw herself in edgeworth, ok? don't think about how she wanted to distance herself from him the moment they met because he could possibly see through the sl-9 plan and ruin everything, but she couldn't because he was kind, if not a little awkward, to her terrified sister in a case where everyone else's only concern was securing a conviction. don't think about how she brought ema to the prosecutor's office (because she damn well wasn't going to let her sister face this alone) with her hackles raised and her defences bolstered because she'd heard about the "demon prosecutor" and his ways just to realise he's nothing but a young man, trying his best to survive under the weight of his mentor's shadow and ensure justice is served by whatever means he can. don't think about how she felt later, when she was under gant's thumb and knew for a fact that all those rumours surrounding von karma's perfect record were, in fact, true and that he was using edgeworth's faith in him to fulfill his own goals. don't think about how she felt when she had to begin doing the same. or what must have gone through her head when she entered her office one morning to find a case approval form waiting for her on her desk: the state v. miles edgeworth. don't think about how she knew, once she saw the name of the prosecutor assigned to his case, that she was signing his death warrant. don't imagine what she rehearsed saying to his sister or her realisation, after his miraculous survival, why he had been so understanding of her own. don't wonder, as she did, ineffectually, if it was his competence or her fondness for him that led to his car and knife being chosen to cover goodman's murder — a second attempt at his permanent removal — and whether it was affection or guilt that made her stand by the corpse, waiting readily to be caught in his stead. don't think about how she finds out, eventually, that he is gone, in a jail cell so far from remorse, gratitude and closure that she can only sit and turn in her head distorted thoughts about luck and fortuitous third chances. don't.
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trainedsubway · 1 year ago
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save me Itapan, Itapan save me
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“Oh, please stay by me, Veneziano”
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puppyeared · 1 year ago
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When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings
#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem#in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together#and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier#WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH#i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd#and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i#waves my hands around manically#for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins#in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone#and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control#one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings#that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded#and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all#like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need#to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level#AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING#anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have#and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh#yapping
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genekies · 1 month ago
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I'm autistic and off-putting, but the hoes love it
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squeakadeeks · 10 months ago
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if i had a dollar for every time a religious missionary knocked on my door to "spread the good news" while i was actively in an acute mental health crisis i'd have 2 dollars, which isnt a lot but also. how many times does this have to happen before they stop coming.
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kaaaaaaarf · 8 months ago
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woke up nauseous with my legs hurting, my body feeling like it got hit by a truck and my head splitting. it took me a full minute until the sinking realization: oh, karfy forgot to take her crazy pills last night.
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tai-janai · 7 months ago
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"if youre still taking requests-" im never not taking voice shipping requests. if you want to see voices kissing, then by god i do too
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xelarale · 1 year ago
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if i was a patient in baltimore state hospital for the criminally insane id try to lick my way out unil frederick chilton let me out for being too much of a danger to will graham
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neurodiversebones · 1 year ago
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returning to a fic i abandoned in december at nearly 4k words and thought was GARBAGE and . wait this is good !!!!! i'm editing it and trying to finish it because it is a very important story to me :-(
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tazzmanian-devil · 4 months ago
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guy who hasnt taken his meds in a week: oh so theres no point? were all doomed? im doomed? im going to die? theres no point in trying? its all hopeless?
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mayoiayasep · 2 years ago
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the most important thing about qifrey losing his shit next month is that he starts to enjoy it. like yea i know he's initially angyr bc coco got hurt but it is soooooo important that qifrey slowly starts to enjoy taking his anger out on the brimmed caps as retribution for his eye
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thislittlekumquat · 7 months ago
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Circling my computer like an uneasy dog because all I want to do is write but I have so many things I have to do and I just. Gnaws my own paw off to escape the trap.
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gregmarriage · 9 months ago
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genuinely so fucked up right now, and so desperate to leave the house, that i would consider my pap smear, a holiday
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